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Well , school is hectic .. I seldom have the time to really hang out with my friends/schoolmates/him , this makes me miss those secondary school days . Partner and I always talk about how we used to slack and do nothing during sec 4 life , and look at us now ! JC has turned us into muggers , somehow . Is this a good thing ? Sometimes I feel so worn out , so tired , that I felt like giving up on everything . Sometimes I feel so sick and tired of people around me , problems happening . But it was just a transient moment of thought , I am glad to have what I have now .. However , all men are greedy right ? So am I . I hope for better things to happen in my life , I hope for more time , I hope for more understanding and love , I hope for less conflicts . Will these ever happen without me trying hard ? There are times where I feel that it’s me that make my own life difficult . That is why I am really trying hard now to attain them , but why do I feel that my efforts are actually going to waste ? It sucks when you are trying so hard , yet you don’t get what you want . Be it studies , family , friends or your another half . What could I possibly do when life gets tough like this ? 

I wish I know better . (:

” Lost and insecure , you found me , you found me . Lying on the floor , surrounded , surrounded . Why’d you have to wait ? Where were you , where were you ? Just a little late , you found me , you found me . 

In the end everybody ends up alone . Losing her , the only one who’s ever known . Who I am , who I am not , who I want to be . No way to know how long she will be next to me . “ 

Feeling terrible now , very very terrible . I just don’t know how to be a better person , sorry . I don’t mean to make things this way ..

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Back to blog , wondering how long I will last . Anyw , some of the future posts will be locked (: 

Be right back !                  

P/S Totally don’t want to study .